The past few months I have hard a time fighting through some emotions. The first year of "full-time motherhood" is coming to a close, Addi is going through the separation anxiety stage, and I'm not going to work (which I don't mind at all, but it still effects you even if you have always wanted to be a stay-at-home mom.) I'll spare you the details of the past and things that I've been trying to process through with all the newness and change in life and tell you about where I see God leading me.
- Mommy Time- I need it! I've neglected myself for ten months. It feels SO selfish to say that, but the truth is I need my time to be a better mommy. Whether it's making time for fitness with and with out Love Bug, getting my nails painted, going someplace alone, finding time to set the computer aside and dig into God's word, or homemade facials one she is in bed. It sound so simple, yet it's so easy to not do.
- Faith-I need to wake up a little earlier to get my cup of coffee, figuratively and literally. I need to fill my soul with the Lord's word to me and be in conversation with him. The last months (and year if I'm honest) have been shaky on and off with my study of the word. If I can find time to blog, surely I can find time for the word! I was reminded Sunday of the urgency of our faith. If we knew there was a semi truck barreling at a loved one or even stranger, we would jump out in front of them to save them (or at least yell.) How are matters of the heart any different?
- Fitness- It is such an important part of my day. I feel so much better about myself and physically when I get out and about. Having a little one makes that complicated, but again it's so important to get those happy chemicals going and keep your body alert and strong.
- Family- I need to make myself a better wife and mom! I know it's a journey, but it's my job and I don't want to take my job half hearted and do an "ok" job.
I'm ready for change, routine, and growth.
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